I sounded so arrogant and conceited
A few years ago I was asked to get interviewed for a magazine!
WOOHOO, right?!
I was so honored and the whole interview went great...I felt AMAZING...and then I got to take a sneak peak at the video interview before it went live...
I gotta say, I was kinda shocked.
I sounded SO arrogant! So full of myself...It was actually a bit painful to watch. I had already struggled seeing myself on video and hearing my own voice, and now I felt ashamed of my words too.
Who was this person in front of me? She sounded cocky and looked like she was having way TOO much fun tooting her own horn.
Who did she think she was, anyway? Someone special? Someone who's allowed to talk that freely and openly about her beliefs, her accomplishments, and overcoming her struggles?
FUCK NO, that's not me. I'm not allowed to be or say or do that.
But that dear reader, THAT is a total and compete lie.
A lie my nervous system was telling me in the form of cringy embarrassment, shame and even a feeling of panic.
I felt it in my body, but it simply wasn't true.
This woman before me was NOT TOO anything...she was finally CONFIDENT, finally allowing herself to HAVE FUN unapologetically while allowing herself to be authentic, vulnerable and EXUBERANT...
Not to mention she was finally ACKNOWLEDGING how far she had come.
The thing is, I was already doing those things in secret, but sharing how good I felt in public felt SO wrong.
At one time in my life I had to stay small, I had to appear meek and weak, so the people around me didn't "put me in my place" and hurt me (as much).
But that time passed long ago.
No one is trying to hurt me now.
And if someone does, I am fully fucking equipped. I will NOT let them tear me down. I'm not a child or naive adult anymore. I have tools, I have resources and I love myself more deeply than ever and I'm devoted to never letting another human being take that from me again.
Please know this for you too.
When you first start CLAIMING YOUR POWER you might feel totally conceited and arrogant, but YOU ARE NOT.
You are finally allowing your bright light to shine through.
You're finally claiming your birthright of brilliance.
I love you.
You've got this.
Keep going.
I've got you.
BIG LOVE,
Erin
P.S. Here's a link to my video interview, what do you think? Tell me in the comments1
P.S. If you desire more support to clear this particular block called the Witch Wound (the fear of being truly seen), you can find my masterclass "Healing the Witch Wound in Business" here
